It's been *forever* since I've had more than one complete day off. The trip this week sort of forced it - I hit some cardio on Tuesday morning (1st day of the trip), but with the migraine and total lack of sleep anything beyond that was not a good idea.
I got home at almost midnight on Thursday night and while I had planned on getting back to my training on Friday, I decided that wasn't a good idea when I woke up with a very tired body.
I was initially worried about that choice, since I'm only 5 weeks out from the meet, but then I realized that's precisely why I should probably sit it out. I could do my deadlift saturday and start with the new week of training on Monday, and I'd be out one workout total. Not bad...so after I worked that all through I felt better about it.
I definitely made the right decision - napped some yesterday, then went to bed around 10pm and slept in until 8 this morning! EIGHT?! It's usually a banner day if if I can make it to 6:30 or 7, 8 is unheard of! I went in this morning for my deadlift/bench workout and it was solid....three days off with a lot of hearty eating paid off, felt really strong and good :) I skipped cardio ;)
Still, I came home and napped - definitely still recovering from last week and all the crazyness leading up to it!
My weight dropped from 146.8 yesterday to 144.2 this morning (that's some crack right there, wtf?). Today I continued to eat without a plan and while the calories were a bit higher (1685), I came out about the same ratios as yesterday (40/35/25). I had lots of good stuff - blueberries and strawberries, oatmeal, yogurt, pork chop, and another square of ancho chile pepper infused dark chocolate - mmmm.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
And then there was the food...
Because of the schedule, the travel, and the social side of things - I knew eating on this trip would be challenging for me. I'd been trying to sort of psyche myself up for it, it got hard when my weight went up from my little meal last Saturday night.
I purposefully did not weigh myself before I left, at the recommendation/strong urging of RC - common sense knew that pretty much no matter what it said I would not be happy with it and also that it didn't matter - I had the job to do. I ate my normal meals leading up to my departure time on Monday, but found myself STARVING within only about 90 minutes of that last meal, which I wasn't ready for - it was surprising. RC texted me "eat what you need to eat." Right right...that common sense thing.
So I put all the "rules" aside and tried to live this week in that way. It was easier to do with little to no structure to the days, and also knowing that there were going to be loonnnnng periods of time between being able to eat.
I ended up eating nearly every meal out, and I ended up eating pretty much just 3 meals a day (versus 6). They were big meals, definitely more rich in carbs and fat than I would normally choose. Also obviously the sodium was higher (since we were out). Both Tues and Weds night out we shared two desserts between the four of us, and Wedsnesday night I had a small glass of wine with dinner.
I found myself really hungry by the time we ate the next meal, despite the previous meal being large. I was fearful each morning of how my clothes would fit, but they continued to fit fine (well, the same as they had been prior to traveling).
This morning I debated staying off the scale completely, particularly because of all days - yesterday was the "worst." It was not bad, but relatively speaking, I ate quite "poorly." I had a large breakfast before leaving for the studio (half egg white, half egg veggie omelet w/light cheese, huge slice of toast with peanut butter, some strawberries, walnuts, and a small blueberry muffin). At the airport for lunch I had a cheeseburger and fries. I ate the entire burger (and bun) and maybe half (maybe not quite) of the fries. I got one ancho chile/dark chocolate truffle from a gourmet chocolate store and enjoyed that with a coffee while I waited for my flight. In Atlanta when I was trapped for dinner but couldn't go very far from the gate, I wound up with a grilled chicken sandwich form Chik-Fil-A - I ate the bun again and I grabbed a small cone of Freshens "Tart Yogurt" frozen yogurt. So three squares and that was it - but really...pretty far outside the norm for me.
Anyway, shockingly (hah), I did NOT stay off the scale this morning. I was totally surprised to see my weight exactly as it was last Sunday. To the decimal place - 146.8
I'm not sure why, but I had already been contemplating all of this long before i stepped on the scale this morning. Just the difference in the eating and how I was feeling and how my clothes were fitting - how that didn't change dramatically during the week. Wednesday night after the two shows - two shows of talking about how important it is to not feel deprived, to enjoy your food, to allow yourself variety (and the entire time being fully aware of the irony of my statements), and following my dinner meal of Poached Pear & Gorgonzola Salad and a faaaabulous pork loin dish that was absolutely drown in oil or butter or some sort of sauce, a glass of wine and several bites of dessert...I fleetingly thought "I can do this."
And then I got home and I see that I DID do it.
On the other hand I was relieved and happy to be back to "normal" today. It's interesting though because I didn't go completely normal - I went with what felt good but with more normal food choices. I logged it all just now, after the fact, and I came in at 1524 calories with 40% protein, 35% carbs, 25% fat (including one square of an extremely dark chocolate bar w/ chile pepper). Which is interesting, because like the week, overall it's carbier and fattier than "normal" for me.
No conclusions, no big declarations to make - just observing and feeling and trying to stay connected to me.
Back to training tomorrow :)
I purposefully did not weigh myself before I left, at the recommendation/strong urging of RC - common sense knew that pretty much no matter what it said I would not be happy with it and also that it didn't matter - I had the job to do. I ate my normal meals leading up to my departure time on Monday, but found myself STARVING within only about 90 minutes of that last meal, which I wasn't ready for - it was surprising. RC texted me "eat what you need to eat." Right right...that common sense thing.
So I put all the "rules" aside and tried to live this week in that way. It was easier to do with little to no structure to the days, and also knowing that there were going to be loonnnnng periods of time between being able to eat.
I ended up eating nearly every meal out, and I ended up eating pretty much just 3 meals a day (versus 6). They were big meals, definitely more rich in carbs and fat than I would normally choose. Also obviously the sodium was higher (since we were out). Both Tues and Weds night out we shared two desserts between the four of us, and Wedsnesday night I had a small glass of wine with dinner.
I found myself really hungry by the time we ate the next meal, despite the previous meal being large. I was fearful each morning of how my clothes would fit, but they continued to fit fine (well, the same as they had been prior to traveling).
This morning I debated staying off the scale completely, particularly because of all days - yesterday was the "worst." It was not bad, but relatively speaking, I ate quite "poorly." I had a large breakfast before leaving for the studio (half egg white, half egg veggie omelet w/light cheese, huge slice of toast with peanut butter, some strawberries, walnuts, and a small blueberry muffin). At the airport for lunch I had a cheeseburger and fries. I ate the entire burger (and bun) and maybe half (maybe not quite) of the fries. I got one ancho chile/dark chocolate truffle from a gourmet chocolate store and enjoyed that with a coffee while I waited for my flight. In Atlanta when I was trapped for dinner but couldn't go very far from the gate, I wound up with a grilled chicken sandwich form Chik-Fil-A - I ate the bun again and I grabbed a small cone of Freshens "Tart Yogurt" frozen yogurt. So three squares and that was it - but really...pretty far outside the norm for me.
Anyway, shockingly (hah), I did NOT stay off the scale this morning. I was totally surprised to see my weight exactly as it was last Sunday. To the decimal place - 146.8
I'm not sure why, but I had already been contemplating all of this long before i stepped on the scale this morning. Just the difference in the eating and how I was feeling and how my clothes were fitting - how that didn't change dramatically during the week. Wednesday night after the two shows - two shows of talking about how important it is to not feel deprived, to enjoy your food, to allow yourself variety (and the entire time being fully aware of the irony of my statements), and following my dinner meal of Poached Pear & Gorgonzola Salad and a faaaabulous pork loin dish that was absolutely drown in oil or butter or some sort of sauce, a glass of wine and several bites of dessert...I fleetingly thought "I can do this."
And then I got home and I see that I DID do it.
On the other hand I was relieved and happy to be back to "normal" today. It's interesting though because I didn't go completely normal - I went with what felt good but with more normal food choices. I logged it all just now, after the fact, and I came in at 1524 calories with 40% protein, 35% carbs, 25% fat (including one square of an extremely dark chocolate bar w/ chile pepper). Which is interesting, because like the week, overall it's carbier and fattier than "normal" for me.
No conclusions, no big declarations to make - just observing and feeling and trying to stay connected to me.
Back to training tomorrow :)
ShopNBC - the Run Down
So I'm back from the crazy trip to Minnesota for my first TV appearance - Guest Host for eDiets Meal Delivery on ShopNBC (this was show #2).
Travel out to MN went fairly smoothly and I met some GFs from eDiets for dinner that night. Girls night out in MN! Hah..can't find one of those here, but send me to Minnesota...lol. I had met Nancy once before 3 years ago (seriously that long?!) and Pratima once just about 2 years ago. Karen I hadn't yet met although we had spoken on the phone - what a wonderful person, so genuine and beautiful :) We had a really nice time!
Tuesday was over to the mall to get a manicure just in case there were any hand close-ups! I started getting a headache in the salon, not sure if it was triggered by the smell in there, but it certainly wasn't helped by all that. Then over to ShopNBC for training...I met with their legal team to get briefed on can/can't say and then I met with the first Host I'd be working with the next day. We sort of went through the show flow, but a lot of it wasn't finalized still. Despite things still being up in the air, it did make me feel a bit better. The headache was getting worse, took a bunch of excedrin migraine and I ate a zone bar hoping maybe I was just hungry and that would help. I met up with Kim and the food stylist and the food was looking fabulous, and then we found Connie who had just finished HER meeting with legal.
We made it back to the hotel around 6 and met up with Gina then went off to dinner. The headache was continuing to worsen, food was obviously not the issue. We went back to the hotel to do "wardrobe." Connie volunteered to try to massage the headache out of me...which I gratefully accepted. It felt better for a bit but that relief didn't last. Around 2am I was in agony and had already taken well over the limit of excedrin migraine for a 24 hour period in about 12 hours, so I went downstairs to see what other drugs were available. I paid a small fortune for some advil and tylenol and popped 3 of each. That took the edge off enough to let me sleep a few more hours.
Was up early and had a solid breakfast, and then Kim and I left for the studios at 7:30 and met with Rob, our make-up and hair guy for 8am. Once my hair and make-up were mostly done, they found me a quiet room with a day bed in it and I laid down in there until about an hour before the show just trying to stay still and keep the head under control. The other girls were in hair/make-up during that time. When I finally had to get up, I downed another cocktail of excedrin migraine, tylenol AND advil and got dressed. About 30 minutes before the show Rob did hair/make-up touch-ups and "gave me lips" LOL
Sound guys came around about 20 minutes before the show to hook us all up. Had a few moments with Lynne (the host) and a pep-talk from Kim and then it was all kinds of lights, camera, action! GAAAAAAAH!
The rest is history! I did my best, and I think each time I went on I improved a little over the last. After the first show we got some lunch (much needed) and then I went and just laid down in my hotel room (with more drugs) until we had to get back to the studios.
I got some hair extensions for the 2nd show - check 'em out:
After that, I went back to bed. Kim came in and gave me another hit of the drugs and I stayed quiet a bit longer, before going back to change into my evening outfit and get more "lips" :) I was FINALLY starting to feel better! Met with the next host briefly, and the next thing I know we were all getting mic'd up again and then BOOM - ON!
Connie and Gina were fabulous for their parts - some nerves showed through for all of us. We also had some fabulous call-ins from other eDiets members who are currently on or have been on our program - Holly, Victoria and Brooke took their turns on Wednesday and they totally rocked it.
When it was over we got some feedback from the producer and then we changed and cut out of there - back to dinner and the hotel room. Early call time on Thursday.
More of the same on Thursday, I felt like the Thursday show went the smoothest, at least form my point of view. Maybe that's because I was feeling a lot better. We had Tina call in that day and Connie and Gina were even better.
When it was all over - what a relief/release! Here we are, all dolled up and DONE:
Kim and I were off to the airport. I had a bajillion travel delays and issues, but ultimately - when i got home I couldn't have been happier. Took the day off today (for the most part, a few hours from home this morning) - no training, nada. I napped. I was exhausted.
What an amazing, crazy week. Amazing, crazy life - actually. Don't really know how I'm "here" and doing what I'm doing. I feel pretty blessed.
Thoughts on food to follow.
Travel out to MN went fairly smoothly and I met some GFs from eDiets for dinner that night. Girls night out in MN! Hah..can't find one of those here, but send me to Minnesota...lol. I had met Nancy once before 3 years ago (seriously that long?!) and Pratima once just about 2 years ago. Karen I hadn't yet met although we had spoken on the phone - what a wonderful person, so genuine and beautiful :) We had a really nice time!
Tuesday was over to the mall to get a manicure just in case there were any hand close-ups! I started getting a headache in the salon, not sure if it was triggered by the smell in there, but it certainly wasn't helped by all that. Then over to ShopNBC for training...I met with their legal team to get briefed on can/can't say and then I met with the first Host I'd be working with the next day. We sort of went through the show flow, but a lot of it wasn't finalized still. Despite things still being up in the air, it did make me feel a bit better. The headache was getting worse, took a bunch of excedrin migraine and I ate a zone bar hoping maybe I was just hungry and that would help. I met up with Kim and the food stylist and the food was looking fabulous, and then we found Connie who had just finished HER meeting with legal.
We made it back to the hotel around 6 and met up with Gina then went off to dinner. The headache was continuing to worsen, food was obviously not the issue. We went back to the hotel to do "wardrobe." Connie volunteered to try to massage the headache out of me...which I gratefully accepted. It felt better for a bit but that relief didn't last. Around 2am I was in agony and had already taken well over the limit of excedrin migraine for a 24 hour period in about 12 hours, so I went downstairs to see what other drugs were available. I paid a small fortune for some advil and tylenol and popped 3 of each. That took the edge off enough to let me sleep a few more hours.
Was up early and had a solid breakfast, and then Kim and I left for the studios at 7:30 and met with Rob, our make-up and hair guy for 8am. Once my hair and make-up were mostly done, they found me a quiet room with a day bed in it and I laid down in there until about an hour before the show just trying to stay still and keep the head under control. The other girls were in hair/make-up during that time. When I finally had to get up, I downed another cocktail of excedrin migraine, tylenol AND advil and got dressed. About 30 minutes before the show Rob did hair/make-up touch-ups and "gave me lips" LOL
Sound guys came around about 20 minutes before the show to hook us all up. Had a few moments with Lynne (the host) and a pep-talk from Kim and then it was all kinds of lights, camera, action! GAAAAAAAH!
The rest is history! I did my best, and I think each time I went on I improved a little over the last. After the first show we got some lunch (much needed) and then I went and just laid down in my hotel room (with more drugs) until we had to get back to the studios.
I got some hair extensions for the 2nd show - check 'em out:
After that, I went back to bed. Kim came in and gave me another hit of the drugs and I stayed quiet a bit longer, before going back to change into my evening outfit and get more "lips" :) I was FINALLY starting to feel better! Met with the next host briefly, and the next thing I know we were all getting mic'd up again and then BOOM - ON!
Connie and Gina were fabulous for their parts - some nerves showed through for all of us. We also had some fabulous call-ins from other eDiets members who are currently on or have been on our program - Holly, Victoria and Brooke took their turns on Wednesday and they totally rocked it.
When it was over we got some feedback from the producer and then we changed and cut out of there - back to dinner and the hotel room. Early call time on Thursday.
More of the same on Thursday, I felt like the Thursday show went the smoothest, at least form my point of view. Maybe that's because I was feeling a lot better. We had Tina call in that day and Connie and Gina were even better.
When it was all over - what a relief/release! Here we are, all dolled up and DONE:
Kim and I were off to the airport. I had a bajillion travel delays and issues, but ultimately - when i got home I couldn't have been happier. Took the day off today (for the most part, a few hours from home this morning) - no training, nada. I napped. I was exhausted.
What an amazing, crazy week. Amazing, crazy life - actually. Don't really know how I'm "here" and doing what I'm doing. I feel pretty blessed.
Thoughts on food to follow.
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